“I have been working in the COVID ward in my hospital for the past three months and have seen too much of pain, hopelessness, spirits broken and hearts saddened.

But as much as I worry about the patient I worry about us, the workers, at the hospital too and my fellow residents.

We have faced a lot in the past few months and I don’t think this is ending anytime soon..so the war goes on.

But I lost my strength the day I found out how the hospital behaved towards a nurse who turned out to be COVID positive. She was asked to go into quarantine at her home--the lady lives in a two room set with her husband, an aging mother, and a one-year-old son. How is quarantining possible for her.

I wish the hospital had offered her accommodation for a few days on its premises or a hotel.

She has been given only her basic pay and all the other benefits in her salary withdrawn for the quarantine period which means a loss of salary for 15 days.

I fail to understand this treatment. 

We are all in this fight together and are ready to risk our lives only on the faith that our organizations will support and take care of us and our family need if we develop the infection.

But this faith stands shattered.

I have lost all motivation and drive to work.

I don’t want to go to my work anymore, any day now.

I feel everyone is a cheat and I will also be cheated.

I FEEL FORSAKEN.

I feel no one cares about us and that we are just casualties of a war...like soldiers die, they too expect us to die.

CAN YOU IMAGINE THE MENTAL STRESS I AM UNDERGOING WITH THIS THOUGHT IN MY MIND?

How do I push myself to go to work everyday?: says resident doctor Mithilesh Agarwal, Moradabad, UP.

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